When you are sick, your only job is to be sick. NOT to heal yourself, but to be sick. Not to pretend to work, pretend to be well.
When you are sick, be sick.
What happens when you are trying to heal?
Then you resist reality... you replace reality with a should-be-reality.
Can your body do its job of healing you if and when you do that? No. It can't.
I know you think you should do this and you should do that... but please don't do anything other than be sick.
Best to go to bed, under the cover, and be sick.
If you paid me to heal you and you don't let yourself be sick, I cannot heal you.
In the past week I spent 37 healing units on a person who is just like that... won't leave it alone. Unwilling to be sick.
In the 37 healing units, that is more than half of what was needed for her to be fully healed, the result has been that the illness hasn't gotten worse.
So what do you think will happen if she continues doing what she is doing?
I'll stop sending healing energies her way... and the illness will continue unabated. And first she'll experience pain, and then suffering, and then she'll die.
So what is really going on?
She is doing here what she does everywhere... She 'already knows' and she 'knows better'. She'll hammer the thing into submission... that is her methodology with everything.
Unfortunately for her, that method doesn't work anywhere, especially not in the case of any illness.
If it were me, and I had the fear of that disease, I would put myself to sleep. Whatever I could do. I may even go to a doctor and get some strong tranquilizer prescribed... The idea that I would cause my own demise doesn't appeal to me... unless it is really intentional.
At this point I choose to live.
We shall see if at any point I choose to die. Until then, when I am sick, I'll be sick.